It's Over

The worst is over. With the LSAT out of way (relatively speaking because I might have to take it again in December), I am now focused on crafting a personal statement so good that the Admissions Committee will have an orgasm. I'm also working on getting letters of recommendation from a professor, a supervisor, and a senator.

And then there's the list. The list of dream schools and realistic schools. I guess the worst isn't over. After I apply, I have to wait. Patience is a virtue and I'm not very patient. If I get in, I'll have three years of craziness and more years of debt. If I don't get in, Mommy will be sad. And I thought that I'd be HAPPY after the LSAT.

So I'm going to make me happy. I'm going to Davis and Sac this weekend to visit friends. And there's the Oktoberfest in San Francisco too. Mmmmm, I enjoy beer. Let's have a good weekend, people!

Nothing Else

Six days until the LSAT.
I'm not nervous.
I'm not confident either.
I'm at the point where I've given it my all
and there's nothing else I can do.

Successful

I. Just. Want. To. Be. Successful.

What I am is my mom's gift to me.
What I become is my gift to her.

"So I fell into the thoughts of my soul
Dreams came rushing like the tingles of hope
If I had one thing that could somehow come true
It’s to show you the dreams that I’ve been dreaming for you."

Juggling work, school, clubs, and play is difficult.
I stand alone. I am awed and jealous.
"If they can do it, so can I."
But I'm constantly bogged down. Slowed down.
I'm tired. And in my weariness, I wonder:
will I always be this busy?

I keep telling myself that when I graduate and
get a job, I can finally slow down, but I'm starting
to realize that this may not be the case because
I just want to be successful.