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I am writing with great haste as I am leaching on someone else's internet. Come Tuesday I will be reconnected again. I feel as if I haven't written in a while. Not having the internet has made me feel separated from the world--forced to retreat to my thoughts. But I was not alone. I had my music, my books, my pen. Though my hiatus will be short-lived, lasting only one week, I feel somewhat revived. I will stop short of saying that I am completely changed; I am not. I am, however, more resolved. But I broke down first. The LSAT is overwhelmingly tiresome and it gets worse with every passing hour that I study. I was and still am so doubtful about my future. But I realized that there's beauty in the breakdown. Not knowing yourself entirely, not knowing what you want entirely is good because you'd have less to fight for if you did know. The uncertain can make you certain and the most obvious can be the least transparent. What is clear to me are my goals:

I will score high on the LSAT.

I will come out to my mother.

I will get into law school.

I will be successful and happy because I believe the two can walk together.

I will help others.

I will fight the good fight.

I will stay true to myself, my family, my friends, my beliefs.

These are my goals, and thus my law. My word is my law. And I will repeat my law so that I may never forget.

On another rambling note, "John Adams" is an HBO miniseries. I bought it at Costco to help pass the time. Similar to "The West Wing" it has refined and retuned my passion to serve. Not for title of grandeur or power or wealth, but for the common good. The United States is, to my knowledge, the first nation to war for a people's liberty. Taxation without representation. Status as a second-class citizen to an English-born person. These are what led 13 colonies to become one independent, free nation. Ironically the problems that escalated to the Revolutionary War have been recycled into modernity. What would our Founding Fathers think about the people in this country today who are trampling all over the Constitution? Where's the active liberty? Where are the people? What will it take for everyone to realize that marriage equality is everyone's issue? Denying rights to a people based on a characteristic can and will set a dangerous precedent.

"An unjust law is no law at all."